Sometimes I wonder if I had done things differently, would I be happy...perhaps more satisfied? But isn't it true that what is destined to happen will happen! If that indeed is the case, then why do we work hard, why do we do things why even dream... so that they can be shattered...or is it necessary to feel the void as you sit amidst the ruins of dreamy castles that you had built?
I'm sure we all have experienced such tumultuous thoughts...where we are undecided as to what to do. But do we then give up.. and live life as it comes. Go with the flow? No, we do put our oar into the water, but when currents advise otherwise we stop to contemplate...
Here's an example...some years back I was desperate to quit my job. I hated the job, the people I worked with and most importantly I felt trapped. To not earn, was not an option. So, there I was stuck in a job that somehow left me gasping for air. I was religiously scoring every opportunity, had also sent out feelers and explored every avenue, but somehow for the tiniest inconsequential things, I could not clinch the deal!
Then blow, right out blue... an avenue I had not even considered, beckoned. An old acquaintance, reached out. Within 4 days, I gladly tendered my resignation and settled into a job that I would hold for more than half a decade!!
Destiny, as they say has a quirky humour! But here I am again, mature, experienced and certainly more patient but with an unquenchable desire to explore more options.
My job is interesting, challenging even... yet there is something that is missing? What is it? Is it the corporate politics? the environment? the people? Well, an amalgamation of all. But, most importantly I felt I was trapped, stagnated, It is not as if there had not been opportunities of growth, or I have been doing the same thing...
So, the burning question remained...what is it that was bugging me? The answer I realized as I stared at the naked blue night light in my bedroom. It was "Me"... I wanted to find myself! In the midst of duty, obligation and responsibility... I had lost the very thing that I fought against all odds to pursue. My dreams, my goals... something that I wanted to do...
So, yes you should dream... as you go with the flow, you may lose perspective, but remember to put your oar in.. and row with the flow!
I'm sure we all have experienced such tumultuous thoughts...where we are undecided as to what to do. But do we then give up.. and live life as it comes. Go with the flow? No, we do put our oar into the water, but when currents advise otherwise we stop to contemplate...
Here's an example...some years back I was desperate to quit my job. I hated the job, the people I worked with and most importantly I felt trapped. To not earn, was not an option. So, there I was stuck in a job that somehow left me gasping for air. I was religiously scoring every opportunity, had also sent out feelers and explored every avenue, but somehow for the tiniest inconsequential things, I could not clinch the deal!
Then blow, right out blue... an avenue I had not even considered, beckoned. An old acquaintance, reached out. Within 4 days, I gladly tendered my resignation and settled into a job that I would hold for more than half a decade!!
Destiny, as they say has a quirky humour! But here I am again, mature, experienced and certainly more patient but with an unquenchable desire to explore more options.
My job is interesting, challenging even... yet there is something that is missing? What is it? Is it the corporate politics? the environment? the people? Well, an amalgamation of all. But, most importantly I felt I was trapped, stagnated, It is not as if there had not been opportunities of growth, or I have been doing the same thing...
So, the burning question remained...what is it that was bugging me? The answer I realized as I stared at the naked blue night light in my bedroom. It was "Me"... I wanted to find myself! In the midst of duty, obligation and responsibility... I had lost the very thing that I fought against all odds to pursue. My dreams, my goals... something that I wanted to do...
So, yes you should dream... as you go with the flow, you may lose perspective, but remember to put your oar in.. and row with the flow!
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